Sunday, January 26, 2014
Geez! It has been SEVEN f*cking years. And so I'm back.
Not really. I actually just decided to check my blog. It's pretty nice (and funny) to at least visit how Rugie was way back in college. One word: EMO!. Grabe pala ako nung college. I can remember how huge a stalker I was before (I still am though LOL!) So what to write right now. Well it doesn't matter as I don't think anyone still reads my blog (Val, are you still there?).
Probably, I'll just post a letter I made to the one I'm currently dating. He made a letter through his blog and so I decided to answer it. Though I already sent him this, it's just nice to actually post it in an actual blog. So here it goes.
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Dear Jani Mitchell
My name is Serge. It has been more than two weeks since we first met. Last night, I saw your letter in your blog (and this is the confession I wanted to make, yes I've been following your blog). It was pretty amusing I must say. It made me realize something. I should hold back no more and tell you what I really feel about you. I'm writing this letter not because of any assumption that the letter is addressed to me (How I wish though!). But anyway, here goes everything.
1. I will dance with you… with or without your pants on.
I am not crazy about sex as most, if not all, gay guys are. I would totally appreciate an all night guitar-jamming and singing more than the usual cock-sucking and moaning. I remember during your birthday when we played and sang Jeepney. Surprisingly, it's way better than sex! Right there I know, this guy is special.
2. Pint, liter or even gallon… Come on!
One problem though, I am screwed when it comes to doing laundry. But since you do wash your own clothes, can you also include the bed sheets please? I promise I will help with the sampay part right after.
3. I watched all the three Sarah Geronimo and John Lloyd movies.
I am not the sweetest kind. Yet thanks to these two, they gave me an idea in case you become this so-called annoying girl. But let me share you this. When you didn't get to reply with my messages or you did but it took at least half a day, I felt a little worried wondering if you have already lost interest in me. Regardless, I will still continue to bug you everyday reminding that there is this equally annoying guy that cares a lot for you. No holding back from here on out right?
4. 'Cause I know I'm no Dingdong Dantes.
I have to look good or at least decent. Well I'm working as a Salesperson for a 5-star hotel so trying to look gwapo certainly is a must. But outside my workplace, I don't give a damn on how I look. But at least now I know I am not butt-ugly for the reason that a 5th date or even just a 2nd wouldn't ever be possible right?
5. …………
As long as you say nothing bad about Mario Maurer, then I will continue to shut the fuck up.
6. I can give you a pinky swear now.
I haven't seen Closer so I have no idea how did Clive Owen forced whoever to tell the truth. It's bullshit to say that I will never lie to you about anything but I can promise you one thing. I was never and will ever be a cheater.
7. Uh oh, no "me time"?
I think I mentioned this during our first date. I value my "me time" in or out of a relationship. With all the 9 points you mentioned, this surely is the toughest part. Well, compromises have to be made but in case we'll be together, can I please request for just one thing? Let me travel around Thailand as a solo backpacker (whether I reach the given 6 month cut-off or not).
8. I downloaded Grindr to look for my future husband, not for any 10-minute fun.
Yes I am looking for love in the hopeless place of Grindrland. I am past the stage of experimenting.
9. I am John Rugie "Serge" Nabua, half Kapampangan – half Pangalatok
You might have not known me well enough yet. But from the first exchanges of messages we had in Grindr early morning of January 4, you talked to no one but me and I will always be just me.
With all these self-promotions I've written, all I want to say is that I'm starting to fall in love with you. I’m thinking it might still be too early. I don’t know. All I know is that you are the first person I think of every time I wake up and the last person before I sleep. Every time your Viber messages prompt on my phone, my heart jumps. Two Saturdays ago, I was excited to go back to UP, not because of Mang Larry's isaw, but because I'll be spending time with the guy I truly like. Jollibee and McDonalds might not be the fanciest venue for a dinner date, but you made those nights extraordinary and worth more than a slice of Prime Rib Eye. But when you were feeling bothered the other night, sadly I also felt the same way.
I don't know what runs to your mind at this very moment. But at least I was able to let it all out and share you how I feel. You may now start to bash my poor writing skill as this is nothing compared to your greatness as a writer/blogger. But I truly hope my message came across.
Thanking you for patiently reading this. And I really miss you Jowy! Get well and hope to see you soon.
Serge
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i'm watching you at 8:03:00 PM
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