Wednesday, February 19, 2014
"And I feels like... you're trying to take my freedom away." Whoa! Saang planeta nanggaling yun? Nagulat ako. Sobrang nagulat ako. Hindi ko alam kung paano? kailan? saan? Kung ganun pala ang nararamdaman mo, ibibigay ko yung kalayaang inaagaw ko pala. Bahala na. Bahala na talaga. Buti na lang mahal na kita...
i'm watching you at 10:55:00 PM
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Sunday, January 26, 2014
Geez! It has been SEVEN f*cking years. And so I'm back.
Not really. I actually just decided to check my blog. It's pretty nice (and funny) to at least visit how Rugie was way back in college. One word: EMO!. Grabe pala ako nung college. I can remember how huge a stalker I was before (I still am though LOL!) So what to write right now. Well it doesn't matter as I don't think anyone still reads my blog (Val, are you still there?).
Probably, I'll just post a letter I made to the one I'm currently dating. He made a letter through his blog and so I decided to answer it. Though I already sent him this, it's just nice to actually post it in an actual blog. So here it goes.
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Dear Jani Mitchell
My name is Serge. It has been more than two weeks since we first met. Last night, I saw your letter in your blog (and this is the confession I wanted to make, yes I've been following your blog). It was pretty amusing I must say. It made me realize something. I should hold back no more and tell you what I really feel about you. I'm writing this letter not because of any assumption that the letter is addressed to me (How I wish though!). But anyway, here goes everything.
1. I will dance with you… with or without your pants on.
I am not crazy about sex as most, if not all, gay guys are. I would totally appreciate an all night guitar-jamming and singing more than the usual cock-sucking and moaning. I remember during your birthday when we played and sang Jeepney. Surprisingly, it's way better than sex! Right there I know, this guy is special.
2. Pint, liter or even gallon… Come on!
One problem though, I am screwed when it comes to doing laundry. But since you do wash your own clothes, can you also include the bed sheets please? I promise I will help with the sampay part right after.
3. I watched all the three Sarah Geronimo and John Lloyd movies.
I am not the sweetest kind. Yet thanks to these two, they gave me an idea in case you become this so-called annoying girl. But let me share you this. When you didn't get to reply with my messages or you did but it took at least half a day, I felt a little worried wondering if you have already lost interest in me. Regardless, I will still continue to bug you everyday reminding that there is this equally annoying guy that cares a lot for you. No holding back from here on out right?
4. 'Cause I know I'm no Dingdong Dantes.
I have to look good or at least decent. Well I'm working as a Salesperson for a 5-star hotel so trying to look gwapo certainly is a must. But outside my workplace, I don't give a damn on how I look. But at least now I know I am not butt-ugly for the reason that a 5th date or even just a 2nd wouldn't ever be possible right?
5. …………
As long as you say nothing bad about Mario Maurer, then I will continue to shut the fuck up.
6. I can give you a pinky swear now.
I haven't seen Closer so I have no idea how did Clive Owen forced whoever to tell the truth. It's bullshit to say that I will never lie to you about anything but I can promise you one thing. I was never and will ever be a cheater.
7. Uh oh, no "me time"?
I think I mentioned this during our first date. I value my "me time" in or out of a relationship. With all the 9 points you mentioned, this surely is the toughest part. Well, compromises have to be made but in case we'll be together, can I please request for just one thing? Let me travel around Thailand as a solo backpacker (whether I reach the given 6 month cut-off or not).
8. I downloaded Grindr to look for my future husband, not for any 10-minute fun.
Yes I am looking for love in the hopeless place of Grindrland. I am past the stage of experimenting.
9. I am John Rugie "Serge" Nabua, half Kapampangan – half Pangalatok
You might have not known me well enough yet. But from the first exchanges of messages we had in Grindr early morning of January 4, you talked to no one but me and I will always be just me.
With all these self-promotions I've written, all I want to say is that I'm starting to fall in love with you. I’m thinking it might still be too early. I don’t know. All I know is that you are the first person I think of every time I wake up and the last person before I sleep. Every time your Viber messages prompt on my phone, my heart jumps. Two Saturdays ago, I was excited to go back to UP, not because of Mang Larry's isaw, but because I'll be spending time with the guy I truly like. Jollibee and McDonalds might not be the fanciest venue for a dinner date, but you made those nights extraordinary and worth more than a slice of Prime Rib Eye. But when you were feeling bothered the other night, sadly I also felt the same way.
I don't know what runs to your mind at this very moment. But at least I was able to let it all out and share you how I feel. You may now start to bash my poor writing skill as this is nothing compared to your greatness as a writer/blogger. But I truly hope my message came across.
Thanking you for patiently reading this. And I really miss you Jowy! Get well and hope to see you soon.
Serge
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i'm watching you at 8:03:00 PM
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Sunday, August 05, 2007
ang weird ng feeling...
paggising mo na lang isang umaga
nawala lahat ng parang bula...
bakit ganun...ampota!
anong feeling ng pelikulang pag walang ending?
anong feeling ng fairytale pag walang happily ever after?
anong feeling ng pangungusap pag walang tuldok?
... sex pag walang orgasm?
... experiment pag walang conclusion?
... olympics pag walang closing cermenoy?
... marathon pag walang finish line?
... sayaw kapag walang final pose?
... kanta pag walang final birit?
... tula pag walang bow?
... araw pag walang sunset?
... ice cream pag walang cherry on top?
... beer pag walang tama?
hay naku...
sensya nakainom lang....
haaaay....
ang hirap talaga pag walang closure...
... i still miss you bhe ...
T_T
i'm watching you at 10:10:00 AM
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
heyers....
kamusta naman ang last entry ko...
election!!!
haha...
oh well...
ayoko talaga ng sundays...
or should i say...
ayoko talaga pag walang pasok...
walang magawa...
walang lakwatsa...
walang baon...
walang CHEVER!!!
yun yun eh...
hehe
speaking of chever...
salamat kay mommy donna at nagkachever ako ng bago...
kahit sa panandaliang panahon lamang...
dahil kay mommy
nameet ko SIYA...
basta siya na yun...ayun..date ito sa cerealicious at trinomial... este trinoma (aisa kasi eh)!!!
kaso nga lang may nalaman ako...
dahil dun..
byers na sa kanya...
but no!!!
here comes jamie KULOT!!!
dahil sa kanya may bago....
at ayun...
may bago na ulit...
hahaha...
basta dun muna....
hay naku... chever!!!
yun lang...
napakawalang kwenta naman ng entry na to...
basta may mapost lang...
oh well...
i'm watching you at 6:07:00 PM
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Monday, May 14, 2007
election day!!!
kainis di ako rehistrado...
therefore, no voting for me... hehe...
oh well... i still have my list of senatoriables...
share ko lang
(tutal di naman ako nakaboto)
1.) Escudero
2.) Arroyo
3.) Defensor
4.) Zubiri
5.) Angara
6.) Villar
7.) Pangilinan
8.) Recto
9.) Aquino
10.) Legarda
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(actually sila lang talaga gusto ko pero kukumpletuhin ko na...)
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11.) Oreta
12.) Cayetano
ayan na... hehe
hope they'll win!
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share ko lang....
medyo happy na ko...
wala lang...
hihi!!!
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i'm watching you at 4:43:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 01, 2007
"sana clear bag na lang ako... para naman kamustahin niya ko"
akala ko yan ang magiging status message ko sa YM
but no!!! may nangyari pa after...
"love is like a polvoron... both are sweet yet they crumble so easily..."
yes!!!
umikot ang buong araw ko kahapon ng dahil sa isang polvoron...
ito lang ang masasabi ko...
matuto tayo magpasalamat kung kailangan...
tandaan niyo yan
hahahahaha!!!
eh kasi naman...
binagyan ko si siya (si chever na alam ng nkararami!) ng polvoron
actually binigyan nung friend ko si chever ng polvoron na galing sa kin galing ng pampanga...
tapos ayun... tinanong niya kung kanino galing...
syempre kilig naman ako dahil galing sa kin
nung nalaman niya galing sa kin eh di naghintay ako ng kahit konting "thank you"
but no!
wala man lang akong narinig...
nagparinig na ang lahat na tipong tanga na lang ang di makahalata
but still!!!
ayaw pa rin magTY!!!
actually hindi ako naiinis dahil hindi siya nag thank you!!!
*KABABAWAN*
medyo inis lang ako kasi...
feeling ko naiilang na siya sa kin...
ILANG NA SIYA!!!
yung tipong ayaw na niya kong makita!!! ganun!!!
dati akala ko lang yun!
sabi naman kasi ng iba hindi naman daw siya siguro ilang
but ng dahil sa polvoron... na prove ko na...
therefore ayoko na sa kanya!!!
kainis dahil kailangan pa namin mag-work together dahil sa mga pesteng PET bottles!!!
dati excited ako ngayon hindi na!!! hmpf!!!
haaaaaay....
i'm watching you at 5:53:00 PM
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
I'm dreaming to sleeping next to you
I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town
I'm counting my sheep and that each one that passes
is another dream to ashes and they all fall down
As I lay me down to night
I close my eyes, what a beautiful sight
I'm sleeping to dream about you, and im so damn tired
of having to live without you, but i dont mind
I'm sleeping to dream about you, and I'm so tired,
oh yes i am
I found my self in the rich hairs, your eyes, your lips, your hair, your
every where, out there
But i woke up in the ditches
I hit the light and I thought you might be here
but you were no where,
oh love, but no were at home
As a lay me back to sleep,
this love i pray me that i can keep
Well its just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying,
myself a little lullaby to keep
I'm always crying, its just a little lullaby
oh once i dry my eyes out
come on now
I'm sleeping to dream about you, and im so damn tired
of having to live without you, but i dont mind
I'm sleeping to dream about you, and I'm so tired
i'm watching you at 9:29:00 PM
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